You know you need a vacation when you wake up in the morning and don’t have the will nor the energy to get out of bed, not because you’re tired and not because you haven’t slept enough but simply because you need a break. You sit on the toilet for 10 minutes when all you really need is 20 seconds and you start thinking what the heck you’re gonna do with your day, not because you don’t have anything to do but simply because you’re just sick of handling the wrong priorities in your life. You feel your vision has become blurry and your daily routine has made you lose focus from your purpose and from the reason you have a daily routine to begin with. Your activities become your main occupation when in fact they should be the means to achieve your goals. Busyness is a killer and soon enough you’ll find yourself going through life aimlessly and your momentum is nowhere to be seen.
If you are identifying with what I’m saying, then you probably need a vacation.
I’ve been postponing this for too long now, and even convincing myself at times that I don’t need a vacation, that I need to get my act together and just “suck it up you big baby!” Today, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I simply need a vacation. I need some time away from everything so I can come back and do the same things all over again but only this time with clarity and renewed stamina. Focus is crucial if you ever want to achieve anything and busyness without focus will make you lose passion on the long run. Even if you’re doing the thing you love doing the most in life and you just know it’s why you were created, you need to feel like you’re heading somewhere. And in order to realize that, sometimes you need to get out of it all and get your perspective back in check.
Hence, I will be going away this week. It may not be the 3-week vacation I was so longing for in another country but it’s still a vacation and I trust it will do the trick, and who knows? Maybe even a better one. After all, God does work all things for my good.
Yesterday, God fulfilled a promise he had given me about a month ago that he would talk my brother into giving me back my bicycle. I was craving to ride it again like I used to everyday and my brother was just not using it anymore. Yesterday while having lunch with my family my brother looked at me and said: “Hey Tony, I was thinking, you can have your old bike if you want. I’m not using it anymore and it’s just standing there, so you can take it.” I tried to keep my cool on the outside and asked him if he was sure about his decision but on the inside I was literally bouncing off the walls with joy. God is faithful!
It’s no coincidence this came about the same time I felt like I needed a vacation. So this week, I will be greasing up those gears and putting air into those long deflated tires and heading somewhere out in the great outdoors with just a backpack, a sleeping bag and a tent. (And a bible of course).
Will be back next week with fresh new revelations that will soon make their appearance on my blog. So until then, my faithful readers 🙂