You see usually when I write, I write just for myself. But sometimes I write something I feel I need to share with the world, and this is one of those times. Hence the need to be short and concise and at the same time heartfelt and impactful. However as I stand facing the wide screen playing back the reel of the past year, I feel awestruck with no clue from where to begin.
How can I describe, narrate or even think of reducing the whole motion picture into words of a limited quantity that may or may not convey the full amplitude of it all?
How can I simply scribe down a year that has witnessed on its full extent, from the beginning to the end, a promise of change, a failure in university, a heartwrenching break-up, a 40-day fast, a revival, signs and wonders, divine visions and utterances, a haircut, no, scratch that, a head-shave, a position of leadership, a new promise, a new level of intimacy, new friends, a move-out, a business start-up, a restoration of old cherished relationships, a share of tears and heartache and a bigger share of joy and hysterical laughter, a public preach, a bicycle give-away, a career suicide, an “Abraham and Isaac”-like sacrifice and a new phone!
It is simply beyond me to put down in words the richness of this past year and its impact on my life in a way that would seem fair, a year that has seen both my downfall and my rise from the ashes, a year in which I learned that change is not how we expect it to be, change isn’t always pleasant and isn’t always what we want it to be like. Change can hurt and can stretch you apart and can even reduce you to nothing. But it is then that you learn the most valuable lessons in life: that man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God, that God is all you need to make it through life joyful and triumphant, that lovers come and go but friends and family stay forever, that no matter how much it hurts now it’ll be alright in the end and everything will have meaning, that you’re never fighting alone but He’s always by your side, that your mourning will eventually turn into dancing and your grief into joy and laughter, that sometimes you can be holding on dearly to something that is not good for you and as much as it is hard to let go, you have to trust the one who is seeing the bigger picture and is directing the course of your life, that there has never been any prayer you uttered and any tear that you shed that He has not heard or felt, that the desires of the righteous are granted, that He is more near than you think, that He is madly in love with you and enjoys you at all times, that He has great and unfathomable plans for you but His ways are different than yours and His thoughts different than your thoughts, that you are not what and who you think you are and people make you think you are but you are what and who He thinks you are and you don’t have to settle for anything less than what He has in store for you, His perfect plan. You don’t have to understand everything you’re going through and why at times He’s asking you to do what He’s asking you to do or else it wouldn’t be called “faith”. But eventually, everything will make perfect sense.
As I look back on it all, I can only say I am more than blessed and even more thankful. And last but not least, I’m 25!